life

i cant say ive had a lot of difficulty in life so far, compared to most of the people ive met

some sad moments

some bad moments

a couple hard moments, or hard years

but i have learned something

being normal, healthy, doesn't exactly mean being average - no one is just "average" -

it means being able to move on

when i was a kid i used to love going to the library

but there was one library i couldnt go to, my parents wouldn't let me

now of course i remember what happened there

it's a lot like that

like i had a brother once

before

i wouldn't really blame my parents for what they did over all those years, who they became, considering (considering what they were really trying to make up for);

it was enough to change a lot of people

but then, a lot of things like that happen in the course of 20 years

you can't let just one of them define you.

you are always more than that

you deserve some respect from yourself

(i wouldn't forget these albums for a dozen dozen years - not for any question of quality, but for why i listen to them and for what they remind me of-

when i forget who i am)