do things i guess

 sorry im late to #music-controls

the idea that you cant get better by reading a book and following simple instructions is a conceit that inspires dum dum

whats worse is the idea that you don't want to

but

you won't be yourself in three years

maybe even two

think about who you're going to be

you can't get better by reading a book. you get better by doing, refining, perfecting, practicing.

maybe you're not advanced enough to do it without the book yet. but when you are, don't expect it to be over

all it means is that you're ready for the next book

Arcana and Arcanum

ive been shocked by the things that i did three years ago

by how bold i was

and its hard to keep going on that same path. things that i thought were resolved get brought up again and i wonder how i ever did them

they're wonders

and i wonder why i ever did them

they don't work, i thought, they never would

they need to be fixed and i didn't have the time to fix them

looking back, every moment of it was worth it

even if the work itself is lost, shattered across months and years to never be repaired

i'm still the lua dev

there was no cornerstone to these works, no guide, no way to brook them into a singular monument

if it was ever possible, it isn't now

but i'm ready to do it all over again

to do the impossible

there's no book out there documenting the things i'm about to do - not even the principles of it

unless i write it myself

i'm a big dum dum for not writing the book first